`Saturday, February 18, 2006;__
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME!
Actually i dont wish to have this post .
But there are really too manys things happenin
recently. somehow for these past few days
i'm just not in the mood if u have realise.
i dont know what is goin on so wrong.
i cant help but to cry silently. maybe some of
you notice maybe not.
FAMILY!
I have this never ending family problems
goin on and on. i'm really fucked up abt it.
You guys may think that i've got lots of freedoms.
i can do anything i wan but hell NO!
My parents think i've changed so much!
i used to be a very sensible and obediant gal
but now i've become so wild just because i pierced
my nose? because i've few more ear holes than others?
just because my skirts are short? just because
i go out often? I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT THE
HELL THEY WANT FROM ME! i seriously dont
understand. they dont want me to have boyfriend
now, all they want from me is to be an obediant gal
who goes back home immediately after school. who stays
at home and do my homeworks , and make sure i stays
at home on the weekends and study! fuck it I CANT!
They dont know what i really want, they dont understand
me either, they have never try to understand me,
well whoever does? NOBODY!
THE OLDER I GET THE STRICTER THEY ARE TO ME. whats this?
cant i just have that little bit of freedom to do what i want
and not what you want me to do!?
RELATIONSHIP
A pain in my ass. really!
There are loves,care & concerns,
laughters, tears,heartbreaks,
those sweet moments and the bad
ones! Hais. people think that we are loving
but they ever see the other side of us?
i dont know .
all i know is NOW we gonna have lesser time
together till i sit for my O'lvls.
i hope you understand my situations and
don't give me too much pressure.
wait for me if you think i worth it.
dont blame me for not havin the time to
accompany you. dont blame me for not being
able to be there for u when u need me,
dont blame me for lonely nights u have .
cos all these I DONT WISH TO HAPPEN
EITHER! but do i have the chance? do
my parents give me the chance? think,
and put yourself in my position. baby i hope
you understand. if u can, wait for me to finish
my seconddary life!
FRIENDS
we all should know very well about it.
so i dont wish to say much .
please have sometimes goin out and have fun
together like what we used to have in e past.
NOBODY UNDERSTANDS!
`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:48 PM;__
